Monday, September 7, 2009

I hate

feeling jealous. I hate being angry. I hate having all these emotions, because I rarely let them show. I keep them bottled up inside, and I'm bound to crack sometime. I just don't want it to happen. I want to keep a positive attitude, and try to make light of everything like people expect me to. I want to be the happy care free person that people see.
But I'm not. I know it sounds like I'm complaining, or I'm depressing, or whatever the fuck it sounds like to you. But I hate this all.
I wish you would see the error of your ways... I wish I were capable of telling you off.
I don't know how I'm going to end this, so I'll just say that I don't know how much more of this I can take.
I'm not built to withstand these kinds of situations.
I don't know what to do anymore.

2 comments:

Laura Bradley said...

Well if you ever need someone to talk to, I've been told I'm good at it. Not talking, listening, well some talking, I'm pretty good at advice.

Carly said...

Thanks! :D