I feel like

I'm never going to know what I want. I'm always going to strive to maintain the unattainable, and I'm always going to look right past everything that's standing right in front of me. And you might say, hey... Now that you know that, why don't you change? Why don't you take a closer look, and try to fix that problem. Well I've been trying to for a while... When I try to fix it, something goes horribly wrong. And so I revert back to my old ways yet again...
It's the circle of life, and it screws us all.

I got my ticket

for the Honor Society show today. Hellz yeah.

Do you trust me enough

if we become two rebels?
Just like outlaws on the run. All we have is each other,
we could eat, sleep, breathe our love.

Fashionably Late, Honor Society's cd just came out yesterday. I suggest you get it. If you don't, you're gonna be missing out big time.
That's all for now.

Before I fall

too fast,
kiss me quick, but make it last.
So I can see how badly this will hurt me
when you say goodbye.
Keep it sweet, keep it slow.
Let the future pass, and don't let go.
But tonight I could fall too soon
under this beautiful moonlight.

But you're so hypnotizing,
you've got me laughing while I sing,
you've got me smiling in my sleep.
And I can see this unraveling,
your love is where I'm falling,
but please don't catch me.

You see this heart, won't settle down.
Like a child running scared from a clown.
I'm terrified of what you do,
my stomach screams just when I look at you.
Run far away, so I can breathe.
Even though you're far from suffocating me.
I can't set my hopes high too high,
cause every hello ends with a goodbye.

But you're so hypnotizing,
you've got me laughing while I sing,
you've got me smiling in my sleep.
And I can see this unraveling,
your love is where I'm falling,
but please don't catch me.

So now you see, why I'm scared.
I can't open up my heart without a care.
But here I go, it's what I feel.
And for the first time in my life I know it's real.

But you're so hypnotizing,
you've got me laughing while I sing,
you've got me smiling in my sleep.
And I can see this unraveling,
your love is where I'm falling
so please don't catch me.

If this is love, please don't break me.
I'm giving up so just catch me.


-Catch Me, Demi Lovato

I hate

feeling jealous. I hate being angry. I hate having all these emotions, because I rarely let them show. I keep them bottled up inside, and I'm bound to crack sometime. I just don't want it to happen. I want to keep a positive attitude, and try to make light of everything like people expect me to. I want to be the happy care free person that people see.
But I'm not. I know it sounds like I'm complaining, or I'm depressing, or whatever the fuck it sounds like to you. But I hate this all.
I wish you would see the error of your ways... I wish I were capable of telling you off.
I don't know how I'm going to end this, so I'll just say that I don't know how much more of this I can take.
I'm not built to withstand these kinds of situations.
I don't know what to do anymore.