Do you ever sit and think of all the reasons why you are the way you are? Or wonder why certain things stick with you, while you're able to blow other things off like it's completely no big deal? Up until middle school, I was fairly confident. I could audition for any show, do anything, and have all the confidence in the world that I would get the part I wanted. Because I was that good. Because I deserved it. But in 6th grade, everything changed. And I guess you could say some of the changes were for the better, but a lot of it sucks now. For a while I was starting to think I was better than everyone, and looking back on it, that's not something I'm particularly proud of. And in order for you to understand these changes, I'll give you the basis of the situation. So I was pretty much involved in something that could have been made into a lifetime movie. People who I thought were my friends turned into these awful people who's main goal was to ruin my life. I literally came home crying every single day, and really considered dropping out of school. It was awful. From that point on, I had to change a lot of things about the way I was. I stopped trusting people as much as I had before, and I never got too close to anyone, because I was fearful that they all had ulterior motives. My confidence was literally shredded into nothing, simply because people were mocking my personal appearance on a daily basis, and it was so drilled into my brain that I started to believe everything they were saying was true. And I guess this is also why the concept of love is so foreign to me. The days when this boy I had a pretty substantial crush on would ask me out, and then walk away and laugh about how funny it was that he asked out a hideous creature such as myself. And I guess for me to still think that it's true, almost 9 years after the fact is pretty ridiculous, but it was a huge turning point in my life. And I doubt I'll ever forget it.

All of the posts on here are stupid and self centered.